Friday, December 16, 2005
2nites ago i met up with some of my teammates dat i'm closer to.
py, yy, yh, fia, jo.. havent met up with them lyk dis since the time we celebrated yh's n jo's bdays at cine's billy bombers. we went carls jnr dis time n the burger to so huge i only ate 3/4 of it n was damn stuffed. py finished the rest of it for me cos she say "dun waste food". haha
i shd step down from my position as Pig1 alr. Pig2 has overthrown me! hahaz i think i used to eat alot dat's y i was crowned Pig1 but now nv train, so i dun really eat alot anymore. py's rowing for NUS n she's
super tanned! i think she's darker now than when in nj. haha
suddenly rem lastime wm used to call her xiao hei n she'd call him xiao bai cos after he left the team he got q fair (lyk me now! :( sux. i must go tanning b4 sch reopens)
speaking of sch, it's
starting in abt 2wks! time passes so quickly. i got my timetable alr n i'm free on thurs! n weds i only haf lessons from 8.30-10.30, so effectively i can say dat i have a 3-day sch wk! yay! but then again.. results r not out yet. if i happen to fail anything
(choy!) *touchwood* , it's the end.. :(
plsplspls dun let me da bao. PLS!anw my teammates n i were talking n we started discussing abt mr yong leaving nj. i think dat's going to spell the downfall of nj canoeing lor. i cant think of any1 who will discipline n push the team as much as he did, or put in as much effort to train us up. the jnrs r angry with him for scolding n scolding n scolding them, n i heard dat he's really v different dis yr as compared to the previous yrs. but shdnt they b used to it after 2 yrs? apparently no1's replying mr yong's smses anymore n he told me it hurts him dat he wans to talk to them but
"all they show is defiance" n no1 is bothering to respond to him. i understand dat mr yong's got a v weird temperament, but i think his dedication to the team n the sacrifices he's made if more than enuf to cancel out his weirdness. i used to get scolded alot by him n i rem he told me
"dun show me dat face" b4 cos he was scolding the team over some stupid thing n i just cldnt help showing my displeasure on my face. bleahs. but i miss my team n all the gd n bad times we'v trained so hard together n i think it's worth getting scolded once in awhile even if i think i'm not in the wrong!
he said he's leaving for temasek sec cos their teacher left n he wans to help them. n also cos he doesnt wan to stay n
"hurt any1 nor get hurt anymore". i told him i think i wldnt have accomplished wad i achieved in canoeing if not for him, n dat i think without him, we wldnt feel as proud to b nj canoeists. i also said i hope dat he'll b happy with the decision he's made. his reply was q sad, saying
"how can one b happy when he's leaving behind so many ppl n so many things?" i think he doesnt really wan to leave, but he's leaving cos
"the jnrs r not showing any remorse" n i doubt any of them r trying to make him stay. i think they'r all v foolish. even daniel wuu thinks dat they'll regret letting mr yong go. i dowan to c nj canoeing going down, but since the jnrs r so adamant, i'm just going to sit back n watch them stuggle to defend the 3 titles without mr yong. i kinda think he's lyk the
Heart & Soul of nj canoeing. haiz.. wld the team still b able to
Go The Distance without him? i seriously doubt so..
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the other day, i saw a pic dat somehow made me feel q fan2 gan2, n ever since have not felt sad or wadeva. it's so weird, but i'm glad at least i'm feeling better. it's q miserable otherwise. anw i dreamt of sth farny last nite! at 1st i dreamt of sth v chaotic but i rem getting into a
catfight with a bitch dat i dunno in real life. but anw she sux lah, so i was damn happy to
kick her ass! bleahs :P den later i dreamt dat vincent ng's my bf! it's so farny cos in reality i dun even lyk him dat much tho i think he has a v nice body :D but in the dream he gave me a v strong sense of security n made me feel v safe, so i was damn happy! but aiyah..
it's just a sweet little dream. so sad :(
i'm going to
cut my hair short later i think. i'm scared i'd regret so i wun cut it v short yet. mayb abt shoulder-length so if i think it sux, it wun take dat long to grow it long again. if i lyk it den nextime'll cut it shorter! :P yup n i wanna highlight my hair too. dun have a colour in mind yet, but if u noe me well enuf, u shd noe it'd b q an obvious colour :D
random thoughts at 10:09:00 PM
